I don't know what i want to go to college for and my mom is being fist first down my throat about it. I really just don't know what i want to do!
I also feel like im never going to be happy in a relationship. When i get in one its ok for a while but then i get picky and only see the flaws and i end it. I don't realize i had something good until after i toss it aside. I just want to find someone i can be happy with and have fun with. (but sometimes i feel like im in love with my best friend) I mean i know your supposed to love them because their your friends but sometimes it feels like its a little more. I mean you can call me crazy or whatever but that's how i feel. I know that it would never work between us because well she has a boyfriend who's my friend and yeah i don't know its just difficult sometimes. i do love her though shes amazing and i know friends is all we can be and im cool with it as long as she's around :)
So i quit my job because i couldn't take the shit i got from everyone there. Now i have no job and nowhere is really hiring at the moment. I might just have to wait until im 18 and work at the bar or waitress or something!
I just miss how simple life was when you were younger and thought boys had cooties and your parents gave you money and you only had to worry about having fun! those were some good times.
I also miss how close me and mauri used to be. we were basically best friends when she first moved up here. now we barely talk due to a boy. he doesn't like me too much because i had a thing with his friend and it ended badly. so all he does is talk shit to her now she doesn't really want to hangout with me anymore and when i text her she's always with him. but whatever i mean she can hangout with him all she wants she just cant expect me to be there for her when he leaves or whatever because if your going to toss me aside im not crawling back.
well that's enough of me bitching for now sorry to anyone who had to read this :P
So i quit my job because i couldn't take the shit i got from everyone there. Now i have no job and nowhere is really hiring at the moment. I might just have to wait until im 18 and work at the bar or waitress or something!
I just miss how simple life was when you were younger and thought boys had cooties and your parents gave you money and you only had to worry about having fun! those were some good times.
I also miss how close me and mauri used to be. we were basically best friends when she first moved up here. now we barely talk due to a boy. he doesn't like me too much because i had a thing with his friend and it ended badly. so all he does is talk shit to her now she doesn't really want to hangout with me anymore and when i text her she's always with him. but whatever i mean she can hangout with him all she wants she just cant expect me to be there for her when he leaves or whatever because if your going to toss me aside im not crawling back.
well that's enough of me bitching for now sorry to anyone who had to read this :P
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